this address doesn't seem to be letting in people that don't live in the US, so i'm moving.

new blog

^^ thanks to pokey who moved all the stuffs. 5 months. lol.

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Wednesday, July 25, 2001 at 11:14 p.m. † back to top

guhm do (kuhm do?) is what mingyu does. the thing he does when he wears the black robe and has the stick. that's what it's called.

that reminds me, today's sunday and i didn't get to watch him practice with jonathan or joon this morning. it's fun watching them. ^^;;

stupid david. *mutter* *grumble*

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Sunday, July 22, 2001 at 11:15 p.m. † back to top

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Sunday, July 22, 2001 at 09:12 p.m. † back to top

somehow, late last night, i managed to get myself to the condo. --;;; i said hello to jonathan. and to brian. to joon. to mingyu. and politely said hello to mingyu's date, a girl i'll call sarah. mingyu had been wrong. she *was* really pretty. and skinny. and petite. hell, even i'd fuck her. my cousin does a good job doing the "hook ups" really. he seems to be able to find someone for all his roommates. hehe. even brian, the only remaining 'pimp' at the condo, goes to jonathan sometimes for a new whore to hold.

sarah very politely said hello back, and then continued her conversation about her classes this fall with mingyu. i couldn't tell if he really wanted to listen. mingyu hates school talk. i think yesterday's date was the first of six different girls total. he's gonna be a busy fairy prince for the next couple weeks. --;;;;;

*sigh* i'm naughty. -pout- i only want what i can't have, and when i finally obtain it, i lose interest and throw it away a few days later.

i got really tired after all the driving, so i just ended up sleeping in my old room, which is now mingyu's room. the walls are still pink there. i was so tired... i could hear that sarah girl chatting on and on, and it made me sleepier. i pulled out my pajamas out of the drawers and put them on, even though they smelled kind of funny. it was something between the wood from the drawers, and just... *blink* mingyu's smell.

when i woke up this morning, i was all tangled in mingyu's sheets. still tired, but no longer sleepy enough to keep my eyes closed. and then it hit me. i jumped up and ran out of the room straight for the nearest bathroom.

gah. i can't believe i got my period after all this time. eesh. my cycle has been so normal this whole year, and all of a sudden when school ended, it just stopped. i kept expecting it, but it wasn't coming so i figured it was just my eating habits that made it all... stupid. (can't come up with a better word. -_-;;)

luckily nothing got on the sheets. T.T i decided i'd wash them anyway though and did at 8 or so this morning. i put new sheets on the bed. they kind of smelled like the hallway closet. after putting them on, i felt tired again so i rolled around in bed some more, unhappy because the blankets no longer smelled like mingyu.

mingyu came in at around 9:30, his hair all puffy and his eyes red. i asked him about his date... how it went, feigning interest. he said he wasn't sure if he'd see her again, but she *was* a very sweet girl. kind of pretty, too.

we rolled around his bed. and then i took a sheet and rolled him up in it. ^^;; i told him he was a worm and that he'd have to get out of the sheets if he wanted to be a butterfly. he gave up after struggling for a few minutes and told me he preferred being a worm.

*

-nahmool and mingyu fixing his bed-

mingyu: *sniff* *sniff*

nahmool: what?

mingyu: *sniff* *sniff* *sniffity* *sniff* *sniff*

nahmool: WHAT?

mingyu: nothing...

-moments later-

mingyu: *sniff* *sni---

nahmool: STOP! what the fuck are you smelling the sheets for?

mingyu: nothing... the blankets smell like you...

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Sunday, July 22, 2001 at 08:38 p.m. † back to top

my new likes (music) list:

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1. jekki.

2. koyotae. (shinji's so cute)

3.linkin park. (mike shinoda in the 'one step closer' mv. ^^;;;)

4. weezer.

5. no doubt. *blink* gwen's my idol too. lol

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Saturday, July 21, 2001 at 11:05 p.m. † back to top

mingyu called my last night while i was ironing my brand new, freshly washed bed sheets.

mingyu: hey, wanna go watch a movie or something tomorrow?

me: (not knowing any movies there could be to watch)what's the other 'something'part?

mingyu: i don't know. eat. we could go to beppo's. didn't you want to go there?

me: i already did with gary while you were gone.

mingyu: oh...

-long pause- nahmool ironing away. ^___^ (what? i like nice, fresh sheets... even if they will get wrinkled when i sleep in them.)

mingyu: whatya doin'?

me: ironing my new bed sheets. -sudden burst of happy/girliness- they're so pretty. ^^;;; you can come see them tomorrow!!!

mingyu: okay........

-pause again-

mingyu: you freak, who the hell irons their bed sheets?

me: -sad voice- i do... T.T

mingyu: --;;;;

me: but they're so nice and warm. and so clean. and wrinkle-less. mmm....

mingyu: --;;;

me: and soft... my dream house when i get older is gonna have a closet stocked full of nice, fresh, ironed sheets.

mingyu: -pout- -whine- can you come iron mine, too?

me: --;;;

*some useless jabber*

mingyu: so tomorrow? i'll pick you up for dinner.

me: i thought you had a date with that one girl tomorrow.

mingyu: oh... oh shit. yea... oops.

me: it's okay. have fun on your date.

mingyu: -whine- but i haven't seen you forever...

me: you saw me a couple days ago, dork.

mingyu: she's not even that pretty... and she definately won't iron my sheets. jonathan hyung always picks weird, slutty girls for me.

me: i know... he has connections from his old big pimpin' days.

mingyu: heh heh. i'll pick you up for lunch then?

me: ooooh... mingyu... two girls on one day.

mingyu: two girls? you? girl? HA!

me: -pout-

mingyu: i'm sorry.

me: ...

mingyu: i'm sorry... sowee. please nahmool-y?

me: ... hm...

mingyu: i have a present for you (?)

me: teehee. in that case... okay, mr. fairy prince.

mingyu: okay. tomorrow around noon? wait? who told you about the fairy pri...

-click-

^^ i like mingyu's new nickname. the fairy prince. ^^;; lol. my cousin says i've been making him too soft. that i've turned a big fighting machine into a tutu wearing ballerina. HA. big fighting machine, my ass. mingyu? the one who runs away from spiders? right... although... mmm... watching him wear that black robe and do that stick thing is really cool. what was it called again? bah. i forgot.

i don't think they have pom pom shoes in the more common sizes anymore 'cause those came out a while ago. i got those last fall around the time school started. and even then, i had to get a larger size because they didn't have it. T.T but i like them just the same. they're twinkie clogs. ^^;;;

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Saturday, July 21, 2001 at 04:14 p.m. † back to top

mingyu and jonathan came home this morning. i met them at the airport before going to work. mingyu was pretty hyper and bouncy. he kept telling me about all the things he saw in chicago... and how disappointed he was he didn't get to see a live oprah show taping. (we watch that together sometimes. >.< what? the fashion shows are fun.) jonathan just sorta rolled his eyes. my cousin looked really tired. he slept most of the ride home.

i wonder if mingyu knows that *i* know why he went to chicago in the first place. i mean, COME ON. "business" is a really lame excuse if you don't even work. *ahem* i mean, i guess i could understand jonathan going, but he ::just:: got back from japan. well. a month ago. i haven't seen him much so it doesn't seem like that long.

-pout- i kind of... envy mingyu. *blink* my cousin spends so much time with him. i mean... i can understand why, but it's not like they even TOLD me anything about him going to the hospital and stuff so really i shouldn't know. and i really have a perfectly good reason to be mad. *shrug* i just feel like being a big baby and whining. it's the first time jonathan's been an older brother to someone else besides me. -cringe- he wasn't even an older brother to his OWN brother. when he was 8, he told his brother, 4, to stick his hand in this machine at a bakery. >_< he didn't lose a hand or anything, but still... i remember jonathan would always pick on him. and then i'd come in and he'd put me up on his shoulders and even play sohkeup jangnan (korean tea party, i guess) with me.

*blink* lol. man... dj shine cracks me up. ^0^ "weeerd." "we ain't into no east coast, west coast shhhh...." i don't know. maaaaaaaaaan. it's just HIM. he makes me laugh. i don't understand how he went from boyband "marky mark, from the big apple, new york, new york. peace~" actually... it was more like "new yohk, new yohk."

i want to see what drunken tiger's clothes line looks like. hehe. nahmool will buy a big shirt and big ass pants to drag around when she's lazy next school year. ew. but -whispers- they coulda come up with a better name. what's REEL? *blink*

oh yea. i saw a gay guy on the bus today. gosh. he was so well groomed. kinna cute in this little kiddy way. he had diamond earrings, those cuff things on his shirt, blue shirt, grey pants and matching grey socks, black shoes. ^^ you can tell if a guy has taste or not if he has matching socks. *cough* unlike a certain jekki member who only wears white socks with EVERYTHING. even when he's wearing ALL black. ^0^ poor shunnie. pokey, we hafta find him!!!

ew. i'm really disappointed with the manga i got today. the straight one was just ... if i flip through it fast enough, it'd be like a porn cartoon show. seriously. it had no plot. just sex. and usually i don't mind, but the drawings weren't even that good. then there was the yaoi i bought... ew. that was yuck too. how come whenever i seem to find decent yaoi, one of the boys is like 9 years old? eesh. pedophiles... reminds me of silent mornings. i can't wait until the next punch drunk babies comes out. that one confuses me so much. and i can't wait for heart either. *sigh* although i know neither will be out until the end of august probably.

there was this fat korean girl at the store today. she was there... and her little ... other asian friend. i know nahmool's mean. but that korean girl pissed me off. her voice was SO annoying, and so loud. and she kept talking and talking about how her daddy gave her all this money and she was buying lots and lots of manga with it. (remind you of someone?) some white kid came in and she was all bragging about it. and the thing that pushed it over the line?

....

she wore all a black pant suit with brown shoes!!!! BROWN. with alll black. BROWNNNNNNNN. >_< eww. even mingyu... no... even suwon, white socks and all, knows that is a big NO.

i mean, besides the fact that she kept telling me how i didn't know anything and how she was just the queen of it all... that was annoying. her voice, that was hella annoying. her shoes!!! no way, bitch.

oh yea. they came out with love hina comics. does pokey want some? i was gonna buy them for her to look at. ^_____^

i wonder why the people that work there keep speaking to me in japanese. i don't look japanese at all. *blink* maybe it's because i just smile and nod my head whenever they talk, pretending to understand. they didn't speak to that brown shoes girl in japanese though. and she can actually READ it. hehe. lol. stupid bitch. next time i see her, i'm gonna walk around with a bunch of manga in one hand, stick out my tongue, and give my middle finger on my free hand some exercise.

"hello?"

"may i speak to *****, please?"

"yea, hold on a sec."

*

"hello?"

"*****?"

"yes?"

"SURPRISE!!!!"

-click-

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Wednesday, July 18, 2001 at 11:59 p.m. † back to top

i fell asleep very early last night. i think at around 8:30 or so... after crying for a couple hours.

i didn't really have any reasons to cry, except that i was tired and hurting and feeling just generally shitty the whole day.

when i woke up this morning around three, i took a shower and stared at myself in the mirror for a long time, somewhat sorry that i didn't look better. i figured of all days, today would be the one day i'd want to look kind of nice... but i looked as bad as i felt the night before.

it took me a while to dig out the old keys and then go through the his unkept yard. after looking blindly in the dark for half an hour, i finally came to the roses. but i couldn't find any white ones. they were all dead and wilted.

so i went through three different 24 hr open grocery stores, searching like mad for white roses. i finally found some at QFC, purchased them, and then drove for the next hour out to the middle of no where.

there wasn't much of a sun out since it's been raining for the past few days so the grass was wet. i didn't want to sit anyway. i placed the white roses on his pretend grave, the one that's not even real, that doesn't even have his body beneath it. i guess it's nice his parents put one up here for me to go to... even if he was buried elsewhere...

the white roses seemed pretty fake too. huh... the symbol of our love. not really. i used to take some from his yard and put them in his room.

"julius, aren't these pretty?"

"you shouldn't pick those..."

i didn't really know what to do there. it was cold and it wasn't like i was going to look up to the sky and talk to him. i didn't do anything. just stood there while an almost an hour and half had passed by.

when my toes and hands finally got so cold i didn't think i could feel them anymore, i left.

and then i cried the whole way driving home.

i made it to work on time.

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Tuesday, July 17, 2001 at 08:01 p.m. † back to top

lookie. my new blog layout. ^^ *smooches pokey* she made the prettiness stuffs for me. *^___^* pretty, pretty.

thank you, pokey!

oy. i think i'm gonna burn a hole through my stomach. i've been eating *so* much spicey food. my tummy hurts... T.T i don't know. i helped my mom make kimchi this morning. ^^ i guess i'm weird. i don't like old kimchi. i like it for the first few days after it's made before it's ready. besides the kimchi, i've pretty much made "goh choo jang" another food group. -__-;;;;

i saw shorty on friday again. ^^

--;;; and ... i'm just playing with a box of marlboro lights. the edges are pointy... ouch. filter cigarettes. sign thingy. marlboro. lights. lowered tar & nicotine.

*blink* i haven't opened it. and now i'm not sure if i really want to. shorty was opening a new box in front of me on friday. lol. it was so funny when he just dropped it when the adult person came outside. wahaha. and i was dumb. i kept staring at it, drawing more attention to the cigarette on the ground. --;;; stupid nahmool.

oh yea. ps. today is jared's birthday. happy birthday, jared!!

bean sprouts went off to pounce hoonie on Sunday, July 15, 2001 at 04:51 p.m. † back to top